No, no long drawn out list of goals or resolutions just one this year, a laser focus for me. I am going to find a better job. One that is closer to home and does not require the 2+ hours per day on a bus. One that I once more look forward to going to. I like what I do and the people I work with but I am just plain tired of being tired from the commute and getting up at 4:30 each morning to wake up enough to drive to the bus so I can nap for an hour and wake up stiff, sore and sometimes even crankier than when I got up originally!
I want to use more of my skills, the web development, the Office Suite, the creative side of me in general. I want to enjoy what I do. I do my job well but no longer enjoy what I do day in and day out.
I recently completed a 3 year project. It was my brainstorm to start with and my former supervisor encouraged me to run with it. My current supervisor is just sorta “there” not really supportive or even seeming to really care. There are days I don’t even see her and half the time I do see her she is running for a meeting. I have been left with training my wonderful cohort in crime another OAII along with any volunteer participants we bring on board. More and more I’m involved in the management of the people I work with that are supposed to be peers not my subordinates. I have been told over and over that I am a team “lead” not a supervisor.
5 years with the State and I am still “just a clerk”. Last year was a kick in the teeth and I have mostly gotten over it but I am done and so I am on the hunt for a more fulfilling career not just “a job” but a better “job” that I can once more do well and enjoy!